We, in a lifetime, come across people who are total idiots, others that will only be in your life for a bit and occasionally we meet people who are just simply amazing. We don’t always realize these people are amazing until we let them go. We, in a lifetime, will live random deceptions and rare moments of joy, and sometimes we happen to feel happy. The feeling only lasts a moment and you only realize what it was when it’s gone. We, in a lifetime, live strange and inexplicable moments that can shake our belief system to its very core…
I’ve written before about believing in love (Love Happens), but the skepticism always comes running back even with the countless people who have oh-so-perfect love stories to prove that love can be real and can happen. I somehow once again not quite understand how things are. It’s not really about being in a relationship, it’s about love, just love. Everytime I think how someone has found love, the real thing, it seems to disappear and no one understands where it went. Is it hiding or is it lost?
As I think of the idiots who I like for no reason, and the people who preach about love for no reason, I think back to the amazing people I let go. Some of them, I still talk to even though it’s painful to think this is the closest I’ll ever be to them, I can’t stop trying to go back to them. I’m addicted to the pain.
I look around me as I hear the sound of my heart aching while I’m waiting for the beep of my phone alerting me I have a message. Even though it’s what I want, it’s not what I need. I see in the corner my math homework and I finally decide to get it and open it. It’s not much distraction as I hear my phone beep.
We, in a lifetime, we will love and get lost. After all, that’s the only way people find each other…